[The illusion makes them jump a little—forgot the kid could do that! It does help paint a picture, though. It's a familiar sort of exhaustion, the eyes of someone who's seen too much for too long. Their gaze lingers on the empty space after he vanishes.]
Hah. That's a pretty messed up thing to say as a first impression, isn't it? [Which is why they said it to stardust while he was zoning out and not paying attention! But they still said it, had to say it, so they can understand.] He was you, once, so I think he'd feel however you think you would feel.
If it were me... I think I'd be a little mean about it~ But it's nice, too. Knowing some version of you is doing alright, being able to talk to them... being able to see your family, even if they're not the same.
[It's better than being alone, seething in jealousy while too scared of rejection to approach.]
[Loop says that about being mean about it, and thinks about the fight they and Sif got into back at one of the older town meetings. Of course, he doesn't let on to that or anything, he just tucks it away.]
I think ...I think I would definitely be more mad at myself. If I resented anything, it would be my own mistakes. That doesn't mean I wouldn't still lash out about it or anything, but I understand why he might have felt guilty about things. He probably got it in his head he needed to do everything on his own and it backfired on him. I remember him saying that by the end he'd discarded everything but the need to survive, and that had turned into fear and distrust.
[Dipper had always tried to keep those words in the back of his mind, but even then, it didn't save him from making terrible mistakes along the same vein. He wonders sometimes about the existence of "fatal flaws" and often wonders if every Dipper is meant to have that one to some extent.]
I'd always hoped that was the case for him, too. That even though he was haunting the place, we still wanted him around. He was still family. A Pines is a Pines, you know? Anyway, we got pretty off track talking about Mason. You want to hear more of my crimes?
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Hah. That's a pretty messed up thing to say as a first impression, isn't it? [Which is why they said it to stardust while he was zoning out and not paying attention! But they still said it, had to say it, so they can understand.] He was you, once, so I think he'd feel however you think you would feel.
If it were me... I think I'd be a little mean about it~ But it's nice, too. Knowing some version of you is doing alright, being able to talk to them... being able to see your family, even if they're not the same.
[It's better than being alone, seething in jealousy while too scared of rejection to approach.]
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I think ...I think I would definitely be more mad at myself. If I resented anything, it would be my own mistakes. That doesn't mean I wouldn't still lash out about it or anything, but I understand why he might have felt guilty about things. He probably got it in his head he needed to do everything on his own and it backfired on him. I remember him saying that by the end he'd discarded everything but the need to survive, and that had turned into fear and distrust.
[Dipper had always tried to keep those words in the back of his mind, but even then, it didn't save him from making terrible mistakes along the same vein. He wonders sometimes about the existence of "fatal flaws" and often wonders if every Dipper is meant to have that one to some extent.]
I'd always hoped that was the case for him, too. That even though he was haunting the place, we still wanted him around. He was still family. A Pines is a Pines, you know? Anyway, we got pretty off track talking about Mason. You want to hear more of my crimes?