I don't think it was, no. He had some kind of nightmare that he wouldn't talk about, and I kept pushing him about it. I know that sounds bad, but if we don't talk stuff like that out, it contributes to our corruption, so I had to. He blew up in a way that felt like he was trying to scream at me to get me to drop it, but instead it just sent my powers out of control.
I wound up having to leave the house entirely ...which was upsetting for both of us, probably. We're fine now, I think, but...
[ Well, Mizuki can’t say he understands the specific sort of people the Pines family are, but he at least gets arguments and worries. That much hasn’t changed. He wobbles in place for a moment before signing again. ]
« If you could tell Stan how you’re feeling about it, what would you say? »
[Hm... That gets Dipper to pause and think. How would he? That's part of the problem, isn't it? Whenever they talk about stuff like this, Dipper usually just cuts right through, and then they both play the same game of trying to get a rise out of each other while throwing up the defenses.]
[Dipper knows he has a temper, and he has a hard time backing down, but if he wants to get Stan to talk he really can't let that get out of control. Ugh.]
I guess... I would say that "It isn't fair to not trust us after all this time. I want to help, but if you keep pushing me away, things will just get worse. You KNOW this, I know this, we've seen what happens when it goes too far."
« You say “you know”, but if you believe that, then why do you think he’s still doing that? Do you think there’s a reason at all? If you don’t understand where he’s coming from, your concerns will sound to him like aggression. »
[Mizuki's right. It will come off like aggression and that's what kicked all this off to begin with. He takes a deep breath, rubbing his face.]
I know there's a reason. He has a history of keeping things to himself. For good reason sometimes. In the past, he's had to keep a lot of really big secrets for a long time, so I think it's second nature to him now. He would rather destroy his mental state than admit that he needs help. I get it, I'm the same way, but-
[Dipper waves his hands as if to try and dismiss that statement a little. He tries to reset and figure out how to explain the next part.]
The way corruption with us works, is that once it sets in, whatever your worse traits are start to amplify. You start to act irrationally, you get more paranoid, your temper flares up, and you just can't see the world around you for what it is. If he's falling into corruption, then all of that gets so much worse. I just ...I don't know how to get through to him when my usual method of just being blunt sets him off.
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I don't think it was, no. He had some kind of nightmare that he wouldn't talk about, and I kept pushing him about it. I know that sounds bad, but if we don't talk stuff like that out, it contributes to our corruption, so I had to. He blew up in a way that felt like he was trying to scream at me to get me to drop it, but instead it just sent my powers out of control.
I wound up having to leave the house entirely ...which was upsetting for both of us, probably. We're fine now, I think, but...
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« If you could tell Stan how you’re feeling about it, what would you say? »
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[Dipper knows he has a temper, and he has a hard time backing down, but if he wants to get Stan to talk he really can't let that get out of control. Ugh.]
I guess... I would say that "It isn't fair to not trust us after all this time. I want to help, but if you keep pushing me away, things will just get worse. You KNOW this, I know this, we've seen what happens when it goes too far."
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I know there's a reason. He has a history of keeping things to himself. For good reason sometimes. In the past, he's had to keep a lot of really big secrets for a long time, so I think it's second nature to him now. He would rather destroy his mental state than admit that he needs help. I get it, I'm the same way, but-
[Dipper waves his hands as if to try and dismiss that statement a little. He tries to reset and figure out how to explain the next part.]
The way corruption with us works, is that once it sets in, whatever your worse traits are start to amplify. You start to act irrationally, you get more paranoid, your temper flares up, and you just can't see the world around you for what it is. If he's falling into corruption, then all of that gets so much worse. I just ...I don't know how to get through to him when my usual method of just being blunt sets him off.